Original Prayer

Lord, the anxiety and fear is back again...i feel i''m living on a knife edge of instability much of the time. i am still fearing people- still feeling full of shame around them, but most of alll i am fearing anger and disapproval. last night i phoned someone up and she said that maybe i hadnt forgiven my abuser. i want to- i dont want to hate him anymore, but i still feel so scared of him- even thinking of it makes me feel sick. i feel condemned, God, please help me- i think about hurting myself still. i dont want to die just to find peace. help me God, deal with this before its too late. i dont want to go back to hospital, i don't want to be pumped full of drugs that won't touch the root of my fear. please God deliver me..my fear has caused me to sin and i want to repent but because fear is still there i end up doing same things. HELP ME, GOD! PLEASE! I'M DESPERATE!!!

Submitted by C on 5 Apr 2009

Responses

I lived with these same things for many years. Saved at 20, now 42, the Lord has been faithful to bring healing and deliverance over the years. I had multiple issues upon issues. The key for me was developing an intimate relationship with Jesus, trusting Him to bring me to those places of wounding to be cleansed, healed, and delivered. Daily seeking and drawing near to God in the Word and in prayer gave me direction, understanding, insight, and the comfort and love I desperately needed. Help came in many ways - bible, books, church, Christians, a gifted Christan counselor, etc. Any healing was orchestrated by God when it was time, so trust and believe in Him, exercise your faith for Him to do the work of restoration, pour out your heart always to Him, and stay close to Him and His Word. He is your hope, He loves you with an everlasting love, and in time, all these afflictions of the soul and mind will be dealt with. You must be willing to be willing - as painful as it may be - you must go through the pain in order to be free from it. If burried or denied, it will continue to fester and effect every area of your life and you will be blind-sided by the enemy time and time again. Desire truth, lust for freedom and seek peace at all cost. God is with you, He is helping you, He will see you through it all.

Submitted by annette on 11 May 2009

C, my prayers are always with you. forgiving your abuser is going to take time and prayer. i struggle to forgive my abuser, i know he's not sorry and that just makes it even harder to forgive him. God will help you through the pain you feel. God will bring you to a place of peace in life. you have come through so much pain and suffering in your life and that's coz God wants you to live. it's the devil who wants to hurt you and cause you pain. it's not for anyone else to say that you have to forgive your abuser; they don't understand the depth of the pain you're feeling, if they did they'd see that to forgive someone who has repeatedly 'hurt' you is not something that just happens. God will help you through Carmen and he will be with you every step of the way, i promise. no one can force you to take medicines if you don't want them. it's your choice...you're a free person. you are in control of your own life, not your abuser and not others...YOU. i know you can get through this pain angel, coz you're stronger than you realize. God bless you always. xx

Submitted by nic on 25 Apr 2009

Please dont give up hope. Hope for a better future. The past can never be changed but all the bad can be turned around and used for gods good. I too was abused and for a long time used to feel full of fear. Fear is satans tool to stop you moving on. To help me to forgive my abuser I told myself that the person didnt know any better and there was a stronger spiritual force behind the abuse. SATAN. Trust that jesus will bring you to the place of peace. Just as he has done for me. Reach out your hand and take ahold of your Fathers hand and please dont give up hope for a brighter time when the pain will feel like a distant memory. I know how crippling fear can be. But hold on to the promise that jesus gives us a spirit of boldness not of fear and timidity. Keep telling yourself this. And eventual it will be written on your heart and firm in your mind. It does take time to overcome the feelings of fear. But Jesus is with you he is living inside you by the power of his spirit and he that lives in you is stronger than he that is in the world. You have come this far and the lord wants to take you to a place in your life here on earth, where you can live out your full potential. Trust him. I am praying for you C.

Submitted by nicola on 12 Apr 2009

Thank you Lord, for bringing this into your light. You alone oh Lord, can be our comfort and our protection. Lord, Jesus, I bring C to the foot of your cross, Your word says I have not given you a spirit of fear, but of power, of love and a sound mind 2Timothy 1:7. I claim this scripture for C and I pray that right now, C would be filled with an assurance of your love and perfect peace. I pray strength and clarity of mind that can only come from You Lord Jesus. For your glory and in Your precious Name, which is the Name above all names. C, may I suggest that you read psalm 142 and claim it's promise for yourself, that the Lord will indeed deal bountifully with you. I will continue to pray for you. Rest in the sure and perfect knowledge that God created you out of love and He will never leave you or forsake you.

Submitted by joanna on 7 Apr 2009