Original Prayer

Hi! My name is Mauricio Tarno and I´m writing you because I feel really bad today. For the last 6 months I’ve been praying so I could get a job as a flight attendant in one of my country ´s airlines, this job was very very important to me because I´m 23 years old and I’d never had a job in my life. I know that this might sound awful, but it’s the truth, I´m not proud of it, but that’s the way it is. For months I ´ve been thinking that being young, strong and capable of performing a job and not doing it, is a sin, because I see impaired people everywhere who has a job and go out every day and make an effort to be better. An aunt of mine then asked me if I wanted to become a flight attendant and I just thought that God was guiding me into that job that I think is a wonderful job. For months I fasted and prayed so God could give me that job that became very important to me, I realized that with that job I could be a good man, a man that knows how to work and earn his money, a man that could make God proud of being his God. Nothing happened tough for several months and just when I thought that God was not going to give me that opportunity, he showed me in His word that He did not forget me and that He was with me. The very next day a I received a phone call asking me to go to a series of tests to get that job. I was completely moved, I felt very loved by God and I knew that finally that job was going to be mine. I went to do my tests and I prayed everyday before every test in order to have God’s favour with me, and every day I got a favourable answer to my prayers, I then just knew that if God was with me, who could be against me? and I was so very grateful for every single little victory I got in Jesus name. Then the recruiting offices sent us ( the ones who had the best results) to the airline offices so they could test us too. During the whole process there was a man that openly bragged about his influences, telling everyone that he knew important people from the recruiting offices and that he already got the job and that he was doing the tests as a mere requisite, I remember me thinking that it was very foolish to rely on human influences and I felt really good thinking that no matter how important his influences were, mine were the best of all, because I was not trusting in no one else but God almighty. The tests went on for several days and every morning before an interview or a test I asked God for his favour in everything I will do and with everyone I will meet. I asked every Christian I knew to pray for me so I could get that life changing job. I even acted upon my faith and bought things I will be needing for that job and I even asked every on line ministry to pray for my employment. I was sure that since I was putting my trust in God, I could never fail, and then today, when we went to pick our results, I found I was rejected for no apparent reason and that the guy with the influences was in. This was a shock to me, I don’t understand why me, the one who always put God before him was rejected and the one that relayed on human powers had success. I am profoundly disappointed, sad, shocked and I really don’t know what to believe in now, since The one that apparently never fails failed me so badly. I realise now that being a non believer with human influences is sometimes more powerful that trusting in God. So my question now is why? Why God let me have high hopes and led me that far if He already knew I was going to be rejected? To have fun of me? Why is it that everyone around me, have amazing opportunities and realities and to me it just don’t happen? Not just with the employment thing but with pretty much everything else in my life. I ve been told to have patience but now I´m tired of waiting for things that never comes, even when I trust God with all my heart. I´m just very angry, sad, and profoundly disappointed, so what do I do now? Do I keep having faith in God although He fails me every time I ask for something really important for my life? Do I have to wait to see a plan for my life that although everyone tells me God has for me it just never ever comes? I’ve been waiting for 23 years and for 3 years of being saved to see a change, to finally have something great that God doesn’t take away from me as He did with my school, my friends, my girlfriend, my father and everything else that matters in my life. In December, I have another opportunity to have the same job but with a different airline, but now I´m very confused, shall I pray? Shall I fast? Will God finally answer a prayer of mine or it just will be a waist of time and, above all, a waist of hope? Please tell me what to do because I feel absolutely abandoned and hopeless. Your bother in Christ: Mauricio.

Submitted by Mauricio on 31 Oct 2003

Responses

Dear Mauricio, I understand exactly how it feels, and how frustrating it is when you dont get that job you thought God would provide. That has happened to me many times over. But God has his best interests for you at heart.His supply is sometimes different from what we think we need. Dont give up hope. God will also honour your desire to work hard. Bless you. Helene

Submitted by Helene on 6 Jan 2004

Mauricio, Brother, do not fret because God hasn't answered your prayer the way you want him to. The scriptures say that God is listening at all times, but do you ever listen to him. When you pray, feel what God is saying to you. One of our problems is that when we pray all we do is talk, prayer is our conversation with God, it is therefore two-way and so we should listen to him. And he will respond to your prayer, maybe not in the way you want, but in the way that is best for you. The way a father brings up his child, to the child it is rarely what they want, but in the long run it is for their own good. In respect of your career, God knows how your life would span out since the beginning of time, it is therefore taken care of. Maybe the attendents job isn't right for you, and He has different plans, great plans that will unfold of you and help you become an amazing person, not only to God but also to mankind as a whole. How good the feelin to know that we have God on our side, guiding us through life, being with us every step of the way. So don't despair, because God isn't! Put your faith in Him, an all will be good. Yours in Christ, Jack

Submitted by Jack on 2 Jan 2004