This is a place for you to be heard in your weeping, in your weakness and in your needs. A place to ask for water for your soul. Build your relationship with God, cry out, groan, ask your God and tell Him your needs. And receive His help.
Dear Lord, here I am coming back to you like the prodigal son. I've run away from You in pursuit of financial gains and self-fulfillment and spent so much time without You. I've worked hard and even harder, thought I don't actually need you to be my sole provider, thought I can figure it all out myself and got so proud I didn't even answer to Your invitation to come back. Lord it's just like I've gotten way to proud to get back to You. I don't know if you can and will actually still receive and answer to my prayer. Are You still willing to forgive what I've done, although I should have known better? Is it still true that I am the child You're looking out for and running to meet as soon as You see me drawing near? Am I actually still worthy to enter Your holy presence? Do you still accept me, although I knew very well what I was doing?
Lord I know I cannot live this life without You! But why does it always take so long for You to answer? Why does it always seem You're so far away? Why don't I feel that deep love for You anymore the way I used to? Lord, You know how great our relationship has been just some months ago. How come I felt so much more close to you in New Zealand and haven't felt that way anymore as soon as I got back to Germany?
Lord, I don't know what to do - all I know is I can't run away all the time and can't live without you for all that long. Please forgive me that I've run away once again. And please help me in the future to stick to You and to not wander of to right or left following anything but You. Lord, please help me to be able to say again: Yes, I am a History Maker For Christ! Lord, please touch me deep down, heal me and restore what's been broken. I want to follow You in good times as well as in the bad ones. Amen.
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