Original Prayer

Lord, i'm here again asking for you to keep my heart pure from thoughts of self-rejection, self-doubt, insecurity and jealousy. i feel that there is still some dead wood there- the roots of my "issues" are deep-seated, and i still need your healing touch in area of trusting others and relating to them. You know that i find men wanting to spend time with me a bit scary still, tho' i'm not a shy person on the outside; i can still feel nervous of intimacy; cos i think i may harm that person, or do something that will make me look stupid. Deal with my anger and paranoia, God. I thank you that i'm feeling calmer than i was a month ago. Thank you for the healing you have already given me- please help me to trust that i will be safe as you take me onto the next level of restoration. Help me to know when i am strong enough to strip away the walls of pride and self-sufficiency i've tried to shield myself with. i want to be able to soar like an eagle, not feel these chains gripping me when i try to break free. i can still feel these "chains" cutting into me, as i struggle to break free.

Submitted by C on 4 Oct 2007

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