Original Prayer

Lord, I come to you again. I have given into temptation once again. Despite encouragement and prayers from my friends, I fell. I have been trying so hard, and every time I start to get there I fall again. What I do disgusts me, it shames me to the very core. Such a contrast of your bright light burning within me, right next to the trash I keep piling in my soul. And now it no longer resides on my computer screen, it resides in my mind. I have fed my mind rubbish, instead of pure and nutritious soul food. It haunts me during the day, I struggle with relationships with women because of the filth I have taken in. Lord, I know what I deserve, but I'm on my knees, begging you for forgiveness, begging you to purify me once again. Give me strength against temptation, and confidence to battle Satan. Lord, on my own I am worthless and useless. Through your name may I succeed in quitting this. I pray for those who are having this same struggle, for I know I am not alone. I pray that they would realsie what they are doing to themselves before they do what I have done, and ruin their minds, like smearing ink across a clean white sheet. Lord I praise you for what you have done, and I am forever in debt to you for your sacrifice. How can I ever repay you? Please take what i give as a small token of praise. Lord work in me, fill me so full of your spirit that there is no space for the things of this world. Lord may the rubbish and filth be pushed aside, to make way for more of you and less of me. I submit to you, for I cannot do it alone. I come before you in Jesus' name begging you to grant my prayers. Amen

Submitted by Jon on 24 Feb 2006

Responses

Bless you for being able to post that, the amount of things that echo in myself and I just want to encourage you "I fall again" we all fall at some point and I’m sure that we have either all prayed that or will be praying it soon if not both ( I know both apply to me! ), and this is only something that I have been shown (very) recently (and still struggling with) is that its not the grace of God that brings condemnation / shame, yes the spirit brings conviction with kindness in the way that you want to get right with God, but feeling guilty, dirtiness and feeling like rubbish that is not from the Holy Spirit, its from the enemy. From the NIV Titus 2:11 ‘For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age.’ So Lord, I pray that you will break the guilt, shame, the feeling of dirtiness and unworthiness and all the lies of the enemy off Jon and anyone else in this situation or a situation like it, and I also pray that You will move more in Jon and anyone else struggling including myself, and that when we get the thoughts residing in our minds that You will help us to take those thoughts captive, and as they appear think – “No, I’m not going to think about this”, and come before You and repent and ask for your grace to move more in our hearts and I thank you that in our weakness is Your strength, so your power of love, your power of grace and mercy can just flood into our lives and work in us, to make us more like your people!

Submitted by steven on 27 Feb 2006