Have you known the pain of someone you love dying from drugs, or being a Jekyll & Hyde personality through drugs & alcohol? Are you being tempted into trying drugs yourself or do you binge drink to dull the pain & memories? If you do, please pray for yourself here or for the person you know who you want to protect. Our God is so strong & powerful, turn to Him & fight for yourself & your loved ones.
Father God - I ask that You help me to remain consistent as i turn from pornography and masturbation. I have been caught in this web since I was 16 - that is over 20 years ago.
I have lost employment, almost gone to prison, lost reputation amongst some and almost lost my marriage because of this addiction.
I feel so disgusting at times, and other times I feel like a fraud because of my positions and responsibilities at church. I sometimes recall some of the things I have done and cringe ... i long to turn the clock back but i know that is impossible. But I thank you that you forgive and allow me to "start again" - i know I have been down this road countless times - promising never to mess up again in this way but forever going down the same road.
I love my wife and long for the deep passion of our relationship to resurface from the darkness that covers our relationship - i love my daughter and long to be the father and the man that can look her in the eye as she grows and give her godly advice/wisdom to strengthen her on her life's journey
i thank you for the dream and experience i had last night (as scary as it was) - it certainly got my attention
remember all the others on here that are suffering/recovering from addictions - we cry to You as our only hope. Give us the strength to finish.
In Jesus' name. Amen
Submitted by Alex B on 10 May 2008
Reply to finishing
Dear brother I understand your situation the sexual addtions are so strong and have so many bondages that are needed to be broken. You need help, the power of the Lord can do everything, but you need someone that can guide you to find all the bondages that you have researching your past carefully, take your time, and step forward to be free at all. God wants you free and happy. Amen.
Your true brother in the same battle for freedom.
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